I Choose...

Today I choose to trust...it isn't easy, and there isn't always a "clear definition" of what choosing to trust means to me, but on this day, I CHOOSE to trust that my Heavenly Father is working on my behalf, on my brother's behalf, on my family's behalf. I CHOOSE to trust Him to work out every detail, EVERY detail that I have already, and haven't even, thought of. He knows the end from the beginning, so I have to trust that He already knows how this story, this chapter, is going to end. He knows how everything is going to work out. Yes, I am still angry, I'm still hurt, BUT that's ok...God is big enough to handle it, to handle me and my tantrum's....When I scream, flail my arms and stomp around, he is big enough to take it. He is big enough to take my questions, my anger, my bitterness, all of it. He is God afterall...
It isn't going to be easy, I'm not always going to feel like it, I'm gonna have fits of rage, anger. I'm gonna still scream and yell and throw tantrums, but in the end, I will still CHOOSE to trust Him. I will CHOOSE to believe that HIS story is going to be so much better than mine would have been. I'm going to CHOOSE to believe that the outcome of this is going to be greater than even I can imagine or fathom. I'm going to CHOOSE to believe that the brother that I know now, the strong, humble, amazing, passionate, man of God is going to be so much greater than he already is. I'm CHOOSING to believe that my family, the Quinney family, is going to be stronger and closer than we already are, that we are going to have a testimony that is greater and more powerful than we have ever imagined! I am CHOOSING to believe that every day that I wake up is going to be a day of hope, a day of miracles, a day for God to prove to us that He is in fact right in the middle of all of this...
So, today I CHOOSE to have hope, to not worry about what tomorrow brings, but rather have hope for the opportunity for miracles! Lord, let it be swift:)

Choosing hope in the brokeness,

Andrea