I had forgotten...

Here I am...I'm sitting in Hastings, using their internet to apply for jobs, update my phone, check my facebook, and think and pray about everything I've gone through, everything I'm feeling, everything I'm facing at this point in my life. Realizing this: I had forgotten. I had forgotten about the things that God has promised me. I have been so wrapped up in the here and now, that I had completely forgotten what His promises for me were. I had forgotten about all the things He has already done in my life. I had forgotten about the time that He healed me as an infant (probably because I only know of this through others, I was only an infant). I had forgotten about what He kept me from when I was a teenager. I had forgotten how, when I needed, actually it wasn't even a NEED, I simply wanted a laptop, He laid it upon a strangers heart to write me a check and mail it to me, because God told her my faith was big and He wanted to bless me with my heart's desire. I had forgotten about how, a few years later when that laptop had crashed, that He blessed me with another laptop, and that same year, somone else gave me a really nice Apple desktop computer. I had forgotten how during my Grandmother's struggle with cancer, He told me over and over that He was going to heal her, and when He didn't heal her the way I wanted, expected Him to, He reminded me that He did heal her...exactly the way He planned. I had forgotten how as a young child He saved me...He has continued to save me from the plans of the enemy. I had forgotten about the time when I was 22 years old and I was lonely, I didn't have any friends, and a lady I didn't know in church, came up to me and told me that God had heard my cry for friends, (a cry that I had never shared with anyone) He has taught me how to be a good friend, and He was going to send me good friends, I would never be without them again. I had forgotten that now, I have more friends than I have ever had in my life, and they are GOOD friends. I had forgotten about the calling, the anointing He has placed on my life. Although it may be undefined, I know that it is there. I had forgotten that He uses me to speak into people in a way that I have never seen anyone else do. I had forgotten about how much He loves me. I had forgotten how He has promised that the ending is going to be so much greater than the beginning. I had forgotten about how He has promised that through all the struggles, all the pain, all the anger, all the confusion, and fear, and worry, and doubt, that HE IS STILL GOD! Just because everything in my life is not perfect, or as I think it should be, does not mean that He has forgotten about me. I am more important to Him than the sparrows in the tree.
God, please forgive me for forgetting. Forgive me for not remembering everything that you have done for me. Forgive me for treating you as if you are human and you are finite. Thank you for reminding me that YOU ARE GOD! Thank you for reminding me that You are supernatural, that what the world says can not be done, you do. Thank you for reminding me that You have never forgotten about me, that You have always been faithful, that You have always come through bigger and better than I could have ever dreamed or asked.

Always trying to remember,

Andrea