Monday, March 5, 2012
Only YOU!
Why am I so afraid? Why am I so afraid of confrontation? Why am I so concerned with what people think? How did I get here? Why didn't I realize this sooner? How do I change it? How do I fix this? Why do I feel this innate need to make everyone around me happy, and sometimes dismiss my own? I HATE it...I want to change it? I have come so far...been through so much, just to let what other people think affect me like this?! God, please break this off of me...I only want what you think to matter...I hear your voice, I know your voice. I know what you tell me, and I know where you are leading me....even when noone else understands it, when maybe noone else agrees with it...I KNOW! I have to go with that, I have to trust that within my self. I have to! Who my friends are, where I live, who I am or am not in a relationship with, who I choose to marry, spend my time with, all of those things shouldn't matter to anyone but You. I need to be trusted, whether I make a mistake or not, I need to be trusted. I am an adult, I am a grown-up. I strive for nothing more than YOUR will for my life...and whether anyone else thinks it is "right" or not, shouldn't matter. Help me to continue learning how to completely concern myself with what only YOU think! PLEASE!
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Your not alone, all of us feel this way. It is so easy to trust when there is nothing to trust for, when you have everything. I believe this is one reason God seemingly took everything from you. So that you learn to trust in Him alone. There is NO one else you can trust in except Him. The Lord God, Jehovah is it. Relationships are the hardest time to trust, when, who, what? We want to know NOW. God says "patience" we say "Why?" Andrea all I know is He has NEVER let me down, I have let him down plenty of times, but He NEVER. Life is not easy, but you can rest in Him, He will hold you, protect you and bless you. Trust in Him it WILL be worth it.
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