Joy in 2012!!

There are 12 days left in the 2011 year. This year, this 2011, has been one of the hardest years of my life. There were times when I really didn't think I would survive...when my heart, my spirit, was so broken I felt like I couldn't breath. Many nights I cried myself to sleep, many days I just walked through the motions of living. I don't want to bring my 2011 into my 2012. I need 2012 to be better. I need 2012 to bring breakthroughs. I need 2012 to be filled with more joy, more laughter, more provision, more love, more humor, and more peace. I need 2012 to be good...really good. Good for me, for my family, for those close to me. I'm not to naive to believe that there won't be pain, suffering, sorrow, in 2012, but I do believe that God can and will (as it is my desire) to bring more of the good stuff than the other.
God told me the other day that I don't settle. I refuse to settle, so because of that, the rewards will be great but the time may be longer (you think?:)) I take refuge in this on most days, but there are these other days where I get so mad...why can't I just be ok with "settling?" Why can't I just be ok with that? I'm talking about everything...I want the "perfect for me" everything. The perfect for me job, car, house, spouse, everything. I've waited to long to just settle. I've tried to hard, had to let go of to much to just settle for being happy and content. I want anointed. I don't want to just survive!
That's all I have for today:)

Simply Broken,

Andrea