Have you ever?

Have you ever been in a place where you have told God that if you lose everything you have, if He chooses to take it all, then its okay? And really mean it? That’s where I am right now. I don’t have a job. Now, I am watching a friends baby, but it is all the way in Arlington and they can’t afford to pay me much, but I am grateful for anything at all, at this point:) So, my car (Lola) is 5 months behind in payments—which stinks because she would have been paid off in February. They haven’t taken her, she’s “hiding” at my parents—really her battery was dead when I moved so I had to leave her with my parents for the time being. I am driving my brothers car, which is also on the “repo” list…I don’t know what to do and have lost many hours of sleep over these two things alone, BUT there isn’t anything that I can do. I have applied for every job that I could, I have been to many, and I mean MANY, interviews, only God knows. Only God knows what He is doing, even when I don’t understand. My dad stresses all the time about money, the finances, taking on my brothers bills while he isn’t able too…BUT I know He who is able!:) I am learning that I cannot go by my feelings, or by what I see with my “fleshly” eyes. I must take on a new perspective. I must take a step back and change my glasses…adjust my vision…the God, the Creator of the Universe, MY God, loves me more than anyTHING in this entire world, this entire universe…so if he chooses to take everything that I have, I still have Him. It’s just stuff…He will always provide, He is always faithful, He always comes through. I can not worry---I can not lose moments of my life in worry. I must remember, I must declare what He has already done for me. I must remember the things that I do have that can never be taken away…my salvation, redemption, freedom, as well as my family, friends, love, hope, and a future. This valley may be long, it may be hard, and it may, at times, feel impossible to get through, BUT I am closer to the edge of the mountain than I was yesterday:)!

Simply Broken,
Andrea