"Oh God, may I pursue You as fiercely as You pursue me..."
This is my prayer, my heart's desire. He chases me. He pursues me. No matter what I've done, where I've been, what I will do, or where I will go, He constantly and fiercely pursues me. Oh I want to do the same...no matter where He leads me, what He asks me to do; even He if never answers another prayer, pours out another blessing, I want to fiercely pursue Him. I will fiercely pursue Him. He is all that I need. He is my everything, and He is more than enough! I can not be anything, go anywhere, without Him! Trust me, I've tried. I looked in other directions, placed my pursuit towards other things, other people, and I was never as satisfied as I am in this moment...pursuing Him.
My life will never be the same...the last couple of years have been hard...I have hurt, felt pain, disappointment, sadness, anger, etc; not only with Tracy, but with my own situation; my brother's situation, all of it...BUT, if I have learned one thing (I have learned alot, but if I had to only pick one) it would be the true knowledge that HE IS ENOUGH! He is enough...just realizing this has been worth every bit of pain and hurt that I have faced...every bit of it.
My prayer is that He is proud of me. Proud of the choices that I have made, the changes He sees in me, the desires of my heart, my passion...I want those things to reflect Him. I want to please Him in everything I do, everything I say, in my every action, my every thought, my every motive, my every intent. I want to be able to say, "follow me, as I follow Christ." That I am living my life in such a way that my mere walk leads them to the One who fiercely pursues them!
As you can see, God has been doing so much in my life...He has been revealing to me some of His plan for my life that I didn't know before...He is calling, has called, me to be a "prayer missionary"--to travel the world and pray, fight in the spirit, war in the heavenlies...how humbling this is...Lord, keep me humble...
Living out His Dreams,
Andrea
