God is amazing! Simply amazing! I don't understand, nor will I ever, how people can know about God and yet turn away from Him. This just tells me that they don't really know Him. How can you know of His undying love, have tasted His goodness, felt His presence, experienced His forgiveness, and still turn away from Him? I have known, tasted, felt, and experienced all of these things and I am more humbled now than I have ever been. I know the sin from which He saved me from, I know that I will never be the same. I know that He is my only reason for waking up in the moring. He is the One who quiets me when my flesh wants to yell at the hypocrite. He is my strength, my breath, my life. In Him there is no pride, only humility, there is no selfishness, only selflessness, no fear only hope, no personal gratification--to God be the glory!
I know that God as great rewards in store for me:) Recently, I feel like I have become the housewife without the wife part:) Due to some unforseen circumstances, my sister and her 4 girls have moved in with my parents for about a month. You see, my sister isn't exactly a multi-tasker...everytime she comes to see us, she seems to think of it as a "vacation." She doesn't do what needs to be done in a timely manner, she's rather lazy (I do believe that this stems from a depression that I think she is slipping into) so, I have become the mom---My mom works full time, so I clean the house, fix the dinners, take care of the children---don't get me wrong, my sis does some things---just maybe not like she needs to, or I would like for her too...Anyways, it is only by the grace of God that I don't become bitter. I don't get a long with my brother in law--not by anything that I have done---I have taken every biblical step that was necessary to mend this relationship...it's by his choice...he is not a Christian, and is the most selfish person I have ever met in my life---so, I believe that because of the Holy Spirit in me, because my spirit does not sit well with the spirits in him---so, it is very hard for me to be in my own home when he is here---he carries alot of stuff on him, he knows it, and he welcomes it---which is trouble in and of itself---anyways, So all this to say that I know that I am just in waiting for my chance...the blessings that God has for me are huge and countless in number.
So, God, I will wait on You. I will trust You. I will hope in You. I will love You with everything that I am and everything that I have. I will give You my time, my heart, my passion, my voice, my ears, my hands, and my feet for You to do anything and everything that you choose!
This is my heart...
Started on my book:)
